tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34148312011-06-08T02:17:29.731-04:00lugubrious broodingsad tales of a girl alone in a big bad world and other such nonsensecaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comBlogger341100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-765754672002-05-15T10:22:00.000-04:002002-05-15T10:24:07.000-04:00so i shouldn't be posting this now from work, but i felt it somehow made sense...
this will be the last entry here for awhile, as i've come to the conclusion i don't really have much to say... it's funny, was talking with dotsboytoy about this, as he hasn't been writing as much in his blog either... and i think i've now officially degenerated into writing about what i ate for breakfast... and caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-762592772002-05-07T08:34:00.000-04:002002-05-07T08:35:46.000-04:00so the second date with ellie last nite went well... i really like her... so hope things continue to go well... i still can't believe she works as a legal assistant in some big law firm... it just seems so amazingly normal and boring, and ellie is neither normal nor boring in any way... guess she just does a good job of hiding it during the day... the only thing that could be considered a caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-761976982002-05-05T19:06:00.000-04:002002-05-05T19:06:05.376-04:00ok, so about my date with ellie the other nite... first off, yes, it was most certainly a date... it just felt like a date from the very beginning... and well, the holding hands and kissing later on in the evening definitely gave it away... this makes me very happy... i was hoping it was things would turn out this way, and indeed they did...
i'm still not sure about what all this is going to caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-761858352002-05-05T12:00:00.000-04:002002-05-05T12:00:15.093-04:00got way too busy the last couple days and fell behind writing down stuff here... but anyway, let me just mention that nick cave and the bad seeds totally rocked last nite... of all the shows i've been to see over the last few weeks, think overall nick cave last nite was the best... props to the 9:30 club yet again for excellent sound... tho it was sold out and thus massively crowded... jenn,caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-760991602002-05-02T20:01:00.000-04:002002-05-02T20:01:34.496-04:00going out to meet ellie in a bit... kinda nervous about the whole thing... still not sure if it is a date or not... hopefully we'll have fun regardless... should go eat something really substantial so i don't drink too much on a nearly empty stomach and embarass myself... looks kinda yukky out, hope neither of us gets drenched on the way over... ok, must stop, relax... stop being totally caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-760389772002-05-01T09:59:00.000-04:002002-05-01T09:59:02.573-04:00ugh... have to work late tonite for sure, so going in a bit late... and thus have time to write a few words here...
there are a couple pretty divey bars that i pop in to every once in awhile in my neighborhood... each is the favorite of one or another of my friends and often can just find a group of folks there to hang out with... reminds me of college in some ways... being able to just stop by caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-759990312002-04-30T09:16:00.000-04:002002-04-30T09:16:50.000-04:00just one quick thing before work... all this going out lately has gotten me really happy about my apartment and living in a comfortable place... i think after things settle down a bit more after this weekend, i'm just going to spend some quality time at home for a bit... avoiding people mostly and enjoying my solitude, tho i might invite people over for dinner or something sometime...
maybe it caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-759251842002-04-28T10:47:00.000-04:002002-04-28T10:48:04.000-04:00ok, it's official... the 80s are back... i have seen the faint and they (and the crowd there to watch them) have convinced me this much is true... now where can i get a flourescent green skinny leather tie?
actually, the faint were quite good, i enjoyed seeing them play thoroughly, but it was like a total flash back to being like 10 years old again... like, like, ohmygod! (just joking with caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-758705412002-04-26T22:26:00.000-04:002002-04-26T22:26:15.323-04:00so the hammer finally fell at work yesterday... was too bummed to write anything about it last nite tho... gonna have to focus a lot more on work at work and curtail my personal internet use while i'm there... which means no more irc, no more im, no more blog updates while i'm at work... have to at least try to show i'm trying to improve my attention to detail at work so i don't screw up more caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-758089992002-04-25T10:27:00.000-04:002002-04-25T10:27:14.010-04:00wow, joining wander-lust has caused a lot of people to come and read my blog... hi people! don't be shy, leave a comment! i'd actually asked dotsboytoy to add it for me awhile ago, but he just did it yesterday it seems... woohoo, thanks guy!
so saw cranes last nite at the black cat... they were good, but not quite as faboo as i was hoping they would be... it was the first show of their u.s. caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-756993922002-04-22T16:45:00.000-04:002002-04-22T16:45:21.626-04:00i'm amazed that i still haven't heard anything here at work about getting in trouble for shit i fucked up... it has now been over a week, the boss's boss is back in town... i keep hoping the shit will never hit the fan, guess we'll just have to continue to wait and see... knowing how things are around here, it will probably seem like it is long gone and forgotten and then next month i'll be caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-756667552002-04-21T20:57:00.000-04:002002-04-21T20:57:29.176-04:00been totally slacking off about writing here lately... hard to keep up the witty banter with myself i guess... not too surprising that not too many people are reading this i suppose, after all, who cares? i should try to be better anyway tho since i've given up my paper journal for writing here instead...
last nite i went out with a bunch of friends and we went bowling... and not just any caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-755453322002-04-18T09:43:00.000-04:002002-04-18T13:08:49.000-04:00ok, i think my life is now complete... siouxsie and the banshees totally kicked ass... tho i never had any doubt that they would... i think that was the most crowded i have ever seen it at nation, the floor was packed and both balconies had a pretty good amount of folks lining the railings, tho it was not so crowded that you couldn't move around... think i'm glad jenn and i sprung for the 2 caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-755171552002-04-17T16:19:00.000-04:002002-04-17T16:19:19.293-04:00i can't remember a show i've been as excited to see as i am to see siouxsie tonite... i took the afternoon off from work cuz i knew i would want to spend a long time getting ready... not to mention that the show is really early... i think i've figured out what to wear, but i'm sure i'll still fret away the time between now and when i have to go changing my mind and trying desperately to get caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-754466882002-04-15T22:08:00.000-04:002002-04-15T22:08:47.230-04:00i'm so excited about going to see siouxsie & the banshees on wednesday... already preparing what i'm going to wear... still not sure quite how i feel about the whole reunion tour thing, but glad i'll get to see them anyhow... i mean, the banshees broke up so symbolically on the heels of the sex pistols announcing their reunion, it just seems wrong somehow for them to get back together now... andcaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-753390892002-04-12T17:21:00.000-04:002002-04-12T17:21:42.716-04:00no fallout so far from yesterday's work stuff... i completed my analysis of what went wrong, sent it to my boss... he hasn't said anything about it yet... guess i'll just have to wait and see how much trouble i'm in and what is going to happen to me...
but on the bright side... it is friday afternoon! another whole weekend of fun coming right up! tho admittedly, not a terribly exciting weekendcaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-752982272002-04-11T17:00:00.000-04:002002-04-11T17:00:59.873-04:00ugh... not a good day at work... fucked some shit up awhile back and it is only now coming to light... just missed some details, but now they are being seen as super-important... my boss needs me to document lots of stuff to try to detail the process i followed and explain why stuff was screwed up... and he pretty much admitted it is a witchhunt by his boss... this is so not goodcaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-752468612002-04-10T10:57:00.000-04:002002-04-10T11:05:16.000-04:00ok, so i'm not usually one to post just random web links.. since this is really more of a personal journal than a "weblog" in the strictest sense... but this one was amusingly topical... well, sorta...
spending $273,000 to combat goth culture in missouri? i'm sure that is more cash than all the goths in missouri have combined... how do you "combat goth culture" anyway? people in the midwest caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-752081292002-04-09T12:06:00.000-04:002002-04-09T12:06:12.693-04:00i'm such an idiot for not adding sites i find interesting to my favorites list... in particular, the other day i came across a group photo blog, where members posted various pictures they'd taken along with captions and/or commentary... now, several days later, i've decided that sounds like something that would be fun to be a part of... after all, i have a digital camera, and have been fooling caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-751780212002-04-08T17:35:00.000-04:002002-04-08T17:43:38.000-04:00so when i was out with the girls on friday nite, at one point michelle and i left the back room to go to the main bar in the red room to get some draft cider, and we got to talking about going to see bands...
i commented to michelle about all the upcoming shows i wanted to go see, siouxsie, vnv nation, cranes, the faint, nick cave (and all in the space of the next month too)... and mentioned caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-751691882002-04-08T13:27:00.000-04:002002-04-08T13:27:33.890-04:00ugh... it is getting so hard to resist... trying to fight the trap of falling into the worst of the blog culture... must not put any of the "which blank are you?" tests in my blog... must not fall prey to the answering the same daily questions as every other blogger... must be strong...
been trying to find other blogs that i find interesting... not sure i've found any yet... anyone reading this?caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-751628572002-04-08T10:02:00.000-04:002002-04-08T10:03:16.000-04:00the first work day after the start of daylight savings time always screws me up so bad... if i'd been smart, i would have set the alarm last nite, so that i might actually have gotten up on time this morning... but of course i didn't... and so i had to rush to get up and around and just barely made it to work on time... i really gotta go to bed earlier tonite and force myself to adjust... i caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-751343452002-04-07T13:25:00.000-04:002002-04-07T13:25:51.840-04:00sundays are such nice lazy days... grocery shopping days... laundry days... reading the big fat sunday newspaper days... the only downside of course is that tomorrow is monday... ah wellcaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-751238062002-04-07T00:06:00.000-05:002002-04-07T00:06:56.963-05:00mmmm... shoes... i'm such a stereotypical girl when it comes to shoes... was out shopping today and bought not one, but two pairs of shoes... both black shoes too, i have such a weakness for them... one pair are kinda mary jane-ish, but with big chunky soles and heels... the other are big clunky motorcycle boots... mmmm... shoes...caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-751080062002-04-06T12:10:00.000-05:002002-04-06T12:12:08.000-05:00now of course, i'm really glad i didn't bail on going out last nite... had a blast, danced lots... boy was it crowded there for awhile tho... the back room at the black cat is teeny-tiny, i'd never seen so many people in there at once...
jenn is still asleep on the sofa, should probably wake her up and get going today... can't sit around all daycaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-750902152002-04-05T18:56:00.000-05:002002-04-05T18:57:28.000-05:00when i told jenn i was thinking on bailing on going out tonite, she told me in no uncertain terms that i was not... and such impeccable logic too...
1) the club nite we're going to, dollhouse, is only once a month... so if i skip it tonite, have to wait for next month to check it out
2) the club is only like a 10 minute walk from my house... so it makes for a simple nite out
3) the playlist fromcaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-750880382002-04-05T17:38:00.000-05:002002-04-05T17:38:57.253-05:00looks like i've gotten dotsboytoy to do a last bit of updating the blog layout for me before he takes off for a week... :-)
he added a nifty neato counter for me that he had started using on You can lead a horticulture... now i can be an obsessive freak counting all my hits just like every other blog author
also, he told me about bloglet, and once he did, i just had to have that too... it caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-750803862002-04-05T13:32:00.000-05:002002-04-05T13:32:42.516-05:00why is it that i've gotten to be such a homebody lately? have been talking about going out dancing with the other spooky grrrls tonite, but now i'm thinking about just wussing out and staying home... reading a book and getting some sleep instead of getting boozed up and dancing...
would make the second nite in a row that i decided not to go out... was gonna go see a couple bands and go dancingcaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-114263752002-04-03T16:34:00.000-05:002002-04-03T16:34:15.976-05:00it has turned into one of those days where all i want to do is go home, close the curtains so the bedroom is pitch black, take off my uncomfortable work clothes, hop in bed, pull the covers up over my head and hide...caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-114161182002-04-03T10:32:00.000-05:002002-04-03T10:33:49.000-05:00i'm sposed to be all dark and mopey and stuff, yet my blog is decked out in some nice bright colors and everything i can think of to write about is all upbeat and stuff... i blame spring
and of course, just when i think things are great and i can stop bugging dotsboytoy about making my blog look pretty and such, someone points out a problem with it, and then upon further inspection, i discover caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-113778502002-04-02T10:19:00.000-05:002002-04-02T10:19:32.466-05:00yay! yay! yay! hooray for dotsboytoy! he's the man, err, boy, err, whatever!
so now i think things on my blog are whipped into shape enough that i can start posting to it in earnest... still not 100% happy with the colors, but after making dotsboytoy go through like 10 different iterations, this is the best we could do... maybe i'll just have to switch to a different template at some point...caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-113438202002-04-01T10:14:00.000-05:002002-04-01T10:14:12.823-05:00when did easter become like, a real holiday? a holiday big enough to put the brakes on our consumer culture? did i miss the big announcement somewhere? i don't ever remember everything being closed on easter before...
(ok, so i tried to go to the mall yesterday only to find it closed... lame)
i'm still glad that the easter i celebrate is the one with bunnies, colored eggs and chocolate tho..caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-111845742002-03-27T15:45:00.000-05:002002-03-27T15:45:04.360-05:00yay! my friend, dotsboytoy (erm, still sounds weird calling him that), has agreed to help me with the template for my blog... good thing too, since my html skills are minimal
so go check out his blog You can lead a horticulture... and tell him how cool he is
must improve colors, the "yellow" (i.e. orange) has got to go
and i want comments too!caithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3414831.post-111822782002-03-27T14:36:00.000-05:002002-03-27T14:36:36.730-05:00first test post to see how things look with my templatecaithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04731742973259241660noreply@blogger.com