Wednesday, May 15
so i shouldn't be posting this now from work, but i felt it somehow made sense...
this will be the last entry here for awhile, as i've come to the conclusion i don't really have much to say... it's funny, was talking with dotsboytoy about this, as he hasn't been writing as much in his blog either... and i think i've now officially degenerated into writing about what i ate for breakfast... and so, who fucking cares?
everything's fine... my life is ok... work kinda sucks, but that is a universal theme... i have friends... i have fun living... i might even have a girlfriend here now... so what is there to write about?
Tuesday, May 7
so the second date with ellie last nite went well... i really like her... so hope things continue to go well... i still can't believe she works as a legal assistant in some big law firm... it just seems so amazingly normal and boring, and ellie is neither normal nor boring in any way... guess she just does a good job of hiding it during the day... the only thing that could be considered a minus from last nite is that whole conversation about orientation that always seems to get people unhappy... ellie is definitely a lesbian, 100% dyke and proud, and i of course like to play with both boys and girls... and for some reason, that always makes it tough for lesbians to accept me... like somehow what i feel for them isn't genuine, like it is just a diversion and i won't treat my relationship with them seriously... hopefully in our conversation i managed to get that across to her... i mean, i'm way past college, it isn't just an experimental phase, i'm not just dating girls while waiting for a man to sweep me off my feet and marry me...
08:34
Sunday, May 5
ok, so about my date with ellie the other nite... first off, yes, it was most certainly a date... it just felt like a date from the very beginning... and well, the holding hands and kissing later on in the evening definitely gave it away... this makes me very happy... i was hoping it was things would turn out this way, and indeed they did...
i'm still not sure about what all this is going to mean in terms of a relationship, but hey, we just met, and are just starting to get to know one another... the fact that we genuinely seem to get along... that we have lots to talk about together... and that there is a spark of physical attraction as well... makes me think good things could happen for us... will have to wait and see...
ellie and i are going out for dinner tomorrow nite... yay! we considered trying to get together over the weekend, but since i'd already planned to go see nick cave last nite, and had plans this afternoon as well, we just pushed it out until tomorrow...
the one thing i have to say i'd forgotten after only dating boys for a few years now... kissing a girl rules... it is so much fun
19:06
got way too busy the last couple days and fell behind writing down stuff here... but anyway, let me just mention that nick cave and the bad seeds totally rocked last nite... of all the shows i've been to see over the last few weeks, think overall nick cave last nite was the best... props to the 9:30 club yet again for excellent sound... tho it was sold out and thus massively crowded... jenn, michelle and i got there early tho, and had a decent perch on the balcony, so we could all see the stage pretty well, tho stuff on the side near us was pretty much out of view... picked the correct side tho since we could see nick when he was sitting at the piano...
besides a bunch of stuff off the new album, they played a lot of good old songs too... "the mercy seat" was excellent, and they did an interesting take on "red right hand" with nick doing slightly different vocal stylings... was a bit disappointed cuz they sold out of all their merchandise... even the cute little baby-t's they sold the last one to a girl like 2 people in front of me... bitch... guess i should have gone down to check out the wares earlier in the nite if i'd really cared... ah well
also, the opening act, neko case and her boyfriends, were really good as well... hadn't really heard their stuff before, tho neko case does a song on a compilation album i have... would have picked up one of their cds too, but she mentioned while their were on stage that they'd sold out of all their stuff on the previous night's show... ah well...
so, will write more soon, especially about the date on thursday...
12:00
Thursday, May 2
going out to meet ellie in a bit... kinda nervous about the whole thing... still not sure if it is a date or not... hopefully we'll have fun regardless... should go eat something really substantial so i don't drink too much on a nearly empty stomach and embarass myself... looks kinda yukky out, hope neither of us gets drenched on the way over... ok, must stop, relax... stop being totally stupid and silly...
20:01
Wednesday, May 1
ugh... have to work late tonite for sure, so going in a bit late... and thus have time to write a few words here...
there are a couple pretty divey bars that i pop in to every once in awhile in my neighborhood... each is the favorite of one or another of my friends and often can just find a group of folks there to hang out with... reminds me of college in some ways... being able to just stop by a place where the chance of seeing people you know is high...
but anyway, stopped by one last nite on the way home... and even tho there is usually someone i know there, last nite there wasn't... so i sat at the bar, and chatted with the bartender (who i think at least vaguely recognized me) for a bit... as i'm close to finishing my beer and thinking i'll just go home, a girl sits down next to me... cute, little more punk rock than me, with some lovely blackwork tattoos covering her entire arms...
i compliment her on her tats, and that begins what turns out to be a long conversation... i swear i really was just trying to be nice and not really start anything... but i think she thought i was hitting on her... and i think from her response, she was definitely interested... so it looks like i got me a date! or at least, it seems like a date... i dunno, with guys it always either is pretty clearly a date or not a date... but with girls, it is so hard to tell sometimes... we exchanged phone numbers, and tentatively agreed to get togehter for drinks again tomorrow nite...
her name is ellie... she is originally from here in dc... she apparently works in some kind of office job where she has to look pretty normal during the day... which is pretty hard to imagine considering the tattoos and big punk rock hairdo... but i guess in a long sleeve blouse and with her hair done differently, you'd never know... didn't find out much more about her, as we spent most of the time talking about the "scene" and other such nonsense... seems like piercings and tattoos and clothes and other self-absorbed fashion nonsense are good icebreakers for freaks...
09:59
Tuesday, April 30
just one quick thing before work... all this going out lately has gotten me really happy about my apartment and living in a comfortable place... i think after things settle down a bit more after this weekend, i'm just going to spend some quality time at home for a bit... avoiding people mostly and enjoying my solitude, tho i might invite people over for dinner or something sometime...
maybe it means i'm getting old, but sometimes i just actually enjoy sitting at home at nite, at the computer or in the big comfy chair with a good book or even vegging in front of the television... which is strange cuz even just a couple years ago, i used to love going out every nite... to see and be seen, to be a social butterfly and all that... but now, it just doesn't hold the same appeal...
09:16
Sunday, April 28
ok, it's official... the 80s are back... i have seen the faint and they (and the crowd there to watch them) have convinced me this much is true... now where can i get a flourescent green skinny leather tie?
actually, the faint were quite good, i enjoyed seeing them play thoroughly, but it was like a total flash back to being like 10 years old again... like, like, ohmygod! (just joking with you there... really!) it was definitely a little slice of 80s synthpop redux, but a happy fun bouncy slice... was amusing to watch the crowd filled with indie scenesters go from their usual sway at the beginning of the nite into something that might be considered dancing in their crowd by the end of the nite... was surprised there weren't more serious 80s-lovin synthpop types that have been infecting the goth / industrial scene the past few years there tho...
couldn't believe how crowded it was tho... we were in line on the sidewalk to get in like half way up the block, waiting and shuffling slowly forward for almost 45 minutes... and inside, the main room was wall to wall people, with only a few gaps between groups of folks in the back... the black cat really can't handle crowds like that too well... and um, the bathrooms, oh, the bathrooms... why is it that like 10 girls all decided to get really drunk and puke all over the place? i mean, don't you underage people these days know how to hold your 1 beer it takes to get you drunk down?
10:47